Singing the Blues

Boy, am I tired today. I've had a long, hard week. Mom had her first chemotherapy treatment last Monday and I've had a long hard week since. The only good thing that has come of it, is the bouncing up and down all the steps a hundred times a day has helped me lose four pounds this week! My poor mom has been so sick from the chemo, she hasn't hardly been able to raise her head off a pillow. She's had no appetite, and no energy. I drew her a funny cartoon of greenish cancer cells running for the hills, yelling to each other that they were given their marching orders, and that they had to find another body to inhabit, one less stubborn! I labeled it Cancer Cells On the Run! I hope she understands that the way she is feeling is all for the good...that even though she is feeling poorly, it is going to get better and to look on the bright side, if she's feeling poorly, so are the cancer cells! That is the moral of the story!!!!

All I can do is pray and hope for the best. I have faith that it will all work out. This is only the first week. She will go through 3 weeks on, 1 week off, then 3 weeks on, 1 week off. Then her doctor will take a cat scan to see if there is any change. Please pray for the best!!!!!!

Meanwhile I am exhausted. I'm pushing liquids. She isn't eating, and I'm pushing ensure and milkshakes made of ensure. She glares at me when I push these things but it is for her own good. She won't eat regular food, says she isn't hungry. She said the doctor said she didn't have to eat...NOT! She has to eat to keep up her strength!!!! I'm going to help her get through this. I think we're all put on this earth for a reason. I'll help her in every way possible and go to the ends of the earth to make her comfortable and to help her. She's my mom. She gave me life.

Never Dull Moment In the Life Of A Mom!

Well, I guess Moms wear many hats. Sigh. I got that job I went for, which was a good thing, I am waiting to find out which case I am on now, so will have to wait to get a paycheck. That will hurt me. Obviously I won't be able to give you facts about cases as that is a no-no. I will say I think I lost one case because the son of the one lady is a cop for one paricular county and I unfortunately mentioned that my brother was a cop for a particular city and I think that lost the case for me. LOL I wish I had kept my mouth shut! LOL I guess live and learn. SIGH! Anyway, there is another case and it looks like more hours, close to full time so I guess everything happens for a reason.

My mom had the lung biopsy last monday and when she did, the corner of her lung collapsed. Air got into it. I sat up all night Monday and Tuesday holding her head up because she was too darned stubburn to go into the ER and couldn't breathe laying down. When it got to the point that her lips were turning blue and she was gasping for air I said enough was enough. I called an ambulance. It is coming back up on it's own without a tube, so she may come home Sunday. I'm a wreck though. My nerves are really getting to me. Worrying about the cancer, the job, money, my grandmother, caring for everyone, my neck is bothering me more than I let on (I have a disc in my neck I'm supposed to go for therapy on but I haven't got the time to go) and my arm went numb yesterday when I was continually turning my head while driving. It freaked me out. It's the first time that has happened. I guess it's time to go back to the neurologist and get those therapy appts started monday whether I have time or not. I need to MAKE time for me. I take care of everyone else but me. That is the problem. I take care of everyone. I'm superwoman I guess. Or I think I am. It's starting to tell on my nerves too. Well, I'm going to run along and see if I get everyone up and rousted. I need my grandmother at her beauticians in an hour.

hello fellow bloggers!

Well, I'm in a good mood today! I lost almost two pounds today! I guess not "today" haha. It doesn't just fall off overnight! I went exercising this morning at the Y. I went on the bike for 30 minutes on level 6. Its a pretty good level, the higher the number the harder it is the pedal. I think it goes to 10? I sometimes go an hour, but I also used the treadmill today so only went a half hour. I want to concentrate on the treadmill because I'm using the treadmill to do the hills. I am raising it on an incline to burn fat. I have it on a 3.0 incline. It makes my heart rate increase which helps me lower my cholesterol I hope! I am trying so hard to avoid taking cholesterol meds. I went in ready to fight yesterday to my drs. Surprised when she agreed with me, she didn't want to put me on cholesterol drugs. I am losing weight and doing well. Unfortunately, my cholesterol is going up while my weight is going down! So, I've got plant sterols and I'm taking them every day. She is going to take the blood again in 3 months. I'm exercising my butt off, literally! LOL

I'm glad I'm finally losing weight again after being stuck in a rut for a few months of not losing hardly any! Maybe now the pounds will start coming off again!

Walk in the Nature Center

Thought I'd share these pictures with you!
Take a seat!


My (animal) friends and I went to the Nature Center for a nice long walk this afternoon, and I thought we'd share some of the photo's with you! We hope you will enjoy the slideshow, and we hope you will learn something from them! Feel free to share them with your homeschoolers!

So, How old do you think this tree is? Can you tell by the rings in the circles???




Do you know what a Vernal Pond is? Read the sign below and find out! If you can't read the small print, I guess you'll just have to do some research online to find out! Ok, I'll tell! It's a pond made by the boy scouts! It's filled with snow in the winter, and then melts in the spring to make a pond for the wildlife! Interesting, huh?

Do you know what poison ivy looks like? Check it out!

Does this look like the foot of a tree, or the toes of a foot? LOL

Hello World!

Hello World! I'm down this afternoon! I went for my interview today, and didn't find out a darned thing. I guess I should give it time. They have to check my references and do a security check and all that, I suppose. I will most likely get a call from them in a few days time. She said, at the end they didn't have any cases available but they should get some soon. That is so frustrating. After all that! It's so depressing. I need work so badly. Well, a friend of mine has a daughter graduating this weekend so I at least have a party to look forward to. I don't even feel like going to it, but I guess I have to go. It will be nice to get out. I guess I'm just depressed from everything going on. The cancer returning (my mom) and the lack of success finding a job so far, etc. I'll keep looking though, I don't give up this easily!

I am going to get my little butt outside for a bit. I suppose maybe I may take myself down to the nature center for a walk. They are open till 8 pm tonight. It is a nice place for exercise, and also photography. I'll add my photo's on this site for everyone to enjoy.

So stay tuned to the further adventures of the weight loss woes of li'l ole moi!

Goodnight to my fellow bloggers!

A final goodnight to my fellow bloggers.....and a few pictures to ring in a new summery day....

Goodnight and till tomorrow....warm wishes to you all!

7 pound weight loss? Yeah, right!

Ok, I went to the doctor today, and she told me I have lost 7 pounds since May when I was in the doctors last. I don't think so!!! What planet is she on, I think? I don't think I've lost more than 7 ounces! I have had such a hard time losing the last month or so! I have been under so much stress! With my moms cancer being back, and trying to get a job and not having much luck, and the car giving me problems, and dieing on and off, and my having so many health problems to boot....well, life just hasn't been a picnic!

I have lost a lot of weight since January. Let's see, since December, I've had meningitis (I spent New Years in the hospital) and I have lost about 35 pounds since then. My car needs either a new head gasket or valve seals, struts and springs, and possibly a new radiator to boot. I essentially need a new car. LOL That's ok, a friend of mine has a 89 Chrysler Cordoba he's willing to give me for a hundred bucks because his grown son is too embarrassed to be seen driving it. LOL It's also a gas guzzler. I am just happy to find a car that will get me from point A to point B without either blowing up or overheating. So what if it costs $60 in gas?

I have an interview tomorrow morning for a job. It is with a home health care agency. I am saying a huge prayer of thanks that they called me for the interview and then saying a prayer that I get the job! I need the job very badly. Not only to fix the car I have but to put gas in the guzzler I'm getting. I told my mom I'd keep the old car for her to drive around town. If she and my daughter want to go to the park, they'd have a car then. I will have it paid off in a few months (oh glory be! It is taking me forever to finish paying the finance charges on that lemon!) Then maybe I can concentrate on getting new struts and a new radiator for it.

I'm thinking of going back to college for nursing. Problem is the chemistry and physics. I am so scared. I'll be 48 years old in July. I'm also afraid of being the only old lady in a sea of youngsters! I really enjoy the health care field though, and I've worked in the field since I was 21 years old. The chemistry, math and physics has always put me off, however!

Ok, I'm off here to go check on mom. She's getting a biopsy done on Monday and is very anxious and nervous. Have a great day, my fellow readers!